"I'm here without you baby but you're still on my lonely mind."

Here Without You~3 Doors Down

I know this song doesn't fit the occasion, but it fits my mood. His funeral is in two weeks, but I don't think I'm going. I still don't think I'll be able to handle it once the time comes. I wish I wasn't alone, but when it comes to death, I rather be alone. This isn't the way I wanted to start the new year either.