NY.

I'm going to New York for a week after I finish finals and I’m so excited right now! Hopefully my grandpa's sister is alright. I'm so looking forward to this trip. I feel like I've waited my whole life for this and it's quite a surprise I must say. Man I can't contain my excitement :)

Life gets crazy.

So many good and bad things have happened over the past few days that I just want to talk about them. Bad  things first. I realized how bad I'm doing in my classes and I didn't know until Week 9 which is depressing. I thought I was at least passing majority of my classes and I am, but not with the grades I want. At least my sister set me straight tonight because all I needed was to hear it from someone. I also failed my exam and 2 quizzes so now that I'm almost done with APO stuff that kept me busy, I can finally set more time to study. I've been having a hard time managing that and I hope I can now. I haven't slept much this past weekend and it's terrible not wanting to get up because I'm too tired. I feel physically and emotionally drained with all this so hopefully I can rest. My left hand was shaking the day of bowling and I don't know why. It might be from the lack of sleep or the coffee I drink to keep me up, but I hope it's nothing serious. The last thing I need is something bad to happen. My grandpa's sister in NY is sick which means we might no go, but I rather have her be healthy more than anything. Even if I don't go, I'll be sad, but health is a priority no matter what. I just hope I get to meet her soon or someday because I don't think I have. On a brighter note, I've been spending a lot more time with friends and less on school (which will be switched again). I saw a shooting star last night which made me hope that something good was coming. I gave my Big his gifts for Big Appreciation and I hope he likes them. I worked really hard and I wish I could have done more, but time is an issue. I talked to Jay tonight which I haven't for a very long time and it makes me miss all my friends. We were so close and college makes it hard but nothing changes with some people and it's so relaxing to know that. Jay is one of those few people who pick up from where you left off and I'm to have a friend like him who checks up. He does troll a lot but he's a wonderful friend to have. So I'm getting closer and closer to being done with my first year. I can finally see my family and friends from home and get some sleep in my own room. I've been through a lot this quarter. I've been so stressed yet so happy at many different times. It's pretty crazy all the emotions a person can go through. As of now, I'm stressed because I do have homework and stuff to do, but I'm being lazy (not good). I just need to rest now because if you don't feel good, you won't be able to do anything. Time to just sleep because that's all I really want or need. Good night world & schedule your time better unlike me :]

Friday night.

Well I'll have a lot to blog about this weekend that's for sure. My feet hurt from wearing heels. I hope I can hike/do service tomorrow. I pray that I didn't over do it tonight which I sure feel like I didn't. I wasn't even sweating from dancing! Usually I do but I still had a fun time regardless. I rather not sweat anyways aha. It was nice getting ready with our small group, getting there late but still on time (don't think we missed anything), took lots and lots of pictures, dancing, and most importantly, having fun. I had so much fun tonight which I haven't had since my high school graduation. I'm sure I have, but this is definitely a night to remember. I bet this whole weekend will be honestly! It's already starting off super good. Something that made me happy was how people never forced me to drink. I know many people are like that, but I'm glad they accept the fact that I choose not to. Thank goodness I've met people who are accepting and a lot of fun to be around. I also played a few games (with lemonade of course) and it was fun. I won't disclose the details but I'm the type of person who can have a good time without drinking. Glad that I haven't lost myself and I hope that I don't. So thanks to everyone who made formal possible, Carmen, Mariana, and Jesse for helping me get ready and curling my hair when Carmen was the only person who knew how, APO people for being the best as usual, Luis for being the photographer and hanging out with me when he could, and the endless memories. I will say this over and over again, APO has impacted and changed my life so much and I'm so glad to be part of something so amazing. It's hard to explain how much happier I've been because of APO. These people make me look forward to going to meetings and events. I'll see some during service tomorrow too. I should realllyyy sleep now before I can't function tomorrow. Good night world & thank you again for everything APO (I mean that with all my heart<3) :]
P.S. Even better news: There's a chance I might be going to New York this summer and thinking about it makes me so happy I can pee in my pants! I'm so excited beyond belief because I don't get to travel and I desperately want to. I hope this works out because I have my hopes up already!

Intense.

I'm so ready for this weekend to start! There are so many events planned that I don't even know how I'm going to survive the whole thing. Tonight is formal, tomorrow is service, kbbq, and scrapbook shopping, Sunday is the Strawberry Festival and Family Day, and Monday will be Memorial Day shopping, bowling, and my sister's birthday (wish I could be home so much). There is so much planned but I'm looking forward to all of it. I can't wait! :) One more class and I'm done for the week! 3 more weeks to go and then I'll be home. Time is surely flying by now.

Happy.

Right now I'm feeling really happy and I have no idea why. Maybe from laughing at all those Tumblr posts or realizing that I'm almost done with my first year, I have all this happiness bundled inside me. I really don't know why, but it feels pretty darn good. Maybe I've been too stressed lately. If only I felt this more often, but this is what I need right now.

Summer Bucket List 2013.

I'm barely coming up with all these now.

1. Get my license-It's about time.

2. Make hair bows-New hobby. :D

3. Learn how to cook many, many dishes and sow-I'm really excited for this!

4. Work out/eat healthier-I need to change things about my life and stick with them.

5. Read more books-Finally read for pleasure again.

6. Watch Chinese dramas/movies-Stick to my roots and learn more Cantonese.

7. Spend more time with family and friends-College has made me realize how much I miss my family and friends. I need to appreciate the time I have with them no matter how short or long.
8. Take more pictures and work on my photo albums-I haven't taken many photos this year but I need to because one can never have too many photos to look back at. I have 3 albums already but I'm not sure if I developed any college pictures yet.

Well that's it for now. I shouldn't make this list too long like usual. Good night world :]

APO Retreat 2.

I just came back from Santa Margarita after spending time with my fellow pledges and pledge moms. I wasn't really into the whole camping idea but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Even if we did stand around for a lot of the time, I still had fun relaxing and not worrying about anything. I actually got to stargaze in the tent since there was no cover for the side I slept on. I really need a sleeping pad in the future but I've been in situations that are worse. I loved making smores, playing all sorts of games, and the "confession" game with Sour Patch Kids. That last one was definitely the highlight of the night since we all got to be open and know more about each other. I'm not afraid to say that I did cry several times because some stories were truly heartbreaking. For my last something most people don't know about me, I truly meant that I'm very grateful to join APO to be able to meet all the great people that I have. I expected college to be the time for me to meet new people and get really close to them, but that definitely didn't happen as much as I wanted to the first 2 quarters. I'm happy and content with life this quarter through pledging and I hope our class stays close. I'm really going to miss pledging next quarter no matter how stressful it has been. APO has already changed my life and I'm glad Tina got me to pledge. I want to thank everyone for yesterday and I had a blast. Can't wait for Big and Little Banquet tonight :)

Big Revealing :)

Well now that Revealing is over, I'm glad to say that Jesse is my Big. I'm part of the Spartan Line and I am Spartan 6. They're going off of 300 and trying to get up to 300 Spartans. I got a lot of hints from him that gave it away (sorta), but I couldn't have asked for anyone better. I took over 10 minutes trying to find where my string started which was very sad. I got a super long string too which didn't help. I got stuck during some of the clues as well but I got through it. I can't wait for Banquet next weekend :) I ♥ you Big!

Finally.

APO Big and Little Revealing starts in 15 minutes. I'm not sure how I feel about this or what to expect yet. I'm pretty nervous and excited but I don't know what will happen! I guess we'll see but I hope I don't get trolled anymore today. I'm super stoked to see who my Big is!

Oh yeah :)

I can't believe it's been this long that I haven't posted on here. Life has been super hectic lately so I don't have time to blog as much. I'm glad to say APO has definitely made college worth it and I'm so happy that I'm pledging right now. The people are great and I have a blast with them all the time. I volunteered for Scout Day this morning and it's nice getting to know and meet more people. I'm really enjoying myself a lot more this quarter even if it's been a crazy one. I wouldn't want it any other way no matter how many times I complain about things. Big revealing is tomorrow and I have no idea what to expect. I'm proud to say that I'm living the life/college life I want :]