Ahhh.

I'm nervous just thinking about it. I can't believe I'm doing this >.<

Slowly...

Today went pretty well. Had practice, went to Lollicup and the park, and practice again. It was fun, but hecka cold. I feel bad cause I got my dates mixed up and you meant this Wednesday while I was thinking about next Wednesday. Man I feel so bad. Good thing I have another one that I didn't give away. My leg is much better. I can walk, still limping every now and then, but it's not that bad. Only hurts a little and stairs can be a pain. Hopefully it'll be gone very soon. Well I guess things aren't so bad. You said there'll be a next time so that made me happy xD So after all this confusion about prom and what not, I might (unsure though) ask someone to prom. Funny how I was supposed to ask you. Well I thought about asking you like wayyy last semester and now I might. Weird how things end up back at the beginning. Not sure how this will turn out. But everyone seems to say I should, so I don't see why not. Besides rejection. But if it's worth the risk, then it's worth the fall. Ahh and now the planning begins. Hopefully you don't decide on asking someone, but if you do, there's not much I can do. Well I'm way too tired for this. Stats took hecka long and I still have 2 more problems. Good night world :]]]]]]]]]]

.....

When you think about everything you could've done and realize that you regret not saying or doing anything. Yeah, I felt that the whole car ride home. I should've asked earlier. Sighhh, now I'm like -___- I guess the feelings never went away... Why? At least we talked a little, but other than that, I feel terrible. Man why do feelings have to be so strong? Next time, I'm speaking up.

Ahhh.

I'm just so tired, I don't even wanna blog. I'm just gonna go sleep now. My leg feels better and I'm looking forward to practice tomorrow :D Good night world :]

So confused.

Should I stop this from becoming something more or just let it happen? I don't know..... D:

-____-

When people think you like a certain person and you don't. I hate that. The festival was pretty fun. I saw Jamie, Vanessa, and Samantha there. Didn't really catch up much though. Saw some acts which were interesting. Walked around. Then I left around 1:30 to go to practice. Only Tony was there and Dalia was outside when Angelica and I arrived. We watched tv until Jenny got there. Mary and Erika came not too long after and we went to practice in the garage. It was interesting learning the tango. I didn't learn Gee yet cause I practiced for like 2 hours before sitting >.> I didn't pay attention to the clock and hopefully I won't be in more pain tomorrow. I can barely walk more today than yesterday. It hurts, but not as much. Yeah so I'll try to rest as much as I can until practice happens. We shall see what happens. Time to study and read. Good night world & have a great week :]

Oh man.

The pain on my calves hurts so bad. Community service was fun but I didn't really feel anything wrong. I watched tv for like 5 hours without getting up so I think that may have been a problem too. Ahh it just hurts so much. Practice is gonna be something tomorrow. Not sure if I should just skip the parade cause this is just too much right now. I feel like the more I walk or stand at a period of time, the worse it's getting. Maybe I should skip it, but I would feel bad if I bail out last minute. Man, I don't know. Good night world :]

Well.

Yeah I think I'm falling again... Great >.> These signs are just everywhere. The songs that you like are always played on the radio and man it's just like it's trying to tell me something, but I don't know what. Then the whole shirt thing. I was gonna wear mines today but decided not to and you did. Weird. So yeah dance practice went well. Except my legs are sore so much. Even more than if I went to a school dance. Now that's really sore for me. I'm sitting and they hurt >.> Man, this sucks. Doing community service this weekend doesn't help either. I won't be getting much sleep. Gah. At least I don't have much homework. Then at Mrs. Solari's today, there were people watching, and a lot of people I must say, so I had food and I ate outside so I wouldn't make a scene. I decided to stay since it was a nice day outside. Then this lady, she was young, came and parked her car in front of the class. I was just sitting there grading papers and she asks me the time so I tell her. Eventually she gets out of her car and comes to the table I was sitting at. I'm just like wondering what's going on here. She ends up asking if I'm a mchs student and I go yes. I was surprised she knew cause most people don't. Anyways she was telling me how she wished there was a program like that during the time she was in school and stuff. She was shocked when I told her my major and how the program works. But she said that it was a great thing to do and she was basically happy for me. Made my day lol. So yeah that was my day. I'm sure I forgot to mention stuff, but I'm tired and those were the things I remembered to talk about lol. I really hope I'm not too sore tomorrow. Man, these past few days we became closer than ever. I know like junior year we didn't talk as much and now it's like freshmen year all over again. She's my dancing buddy now lol. Good night world & have a great weekend :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

Fudge.

I think I'm falling for him again. Whyyyyyyyy D: I seriously have issues. Anyways, the song during the english presentation today just made me think to myself "Why this song out of all the songs out there?" Like the one song that reminds me of someone all the time would be chosen for the presentation. I eventually forgot, but still it made me like -______- Assembly went well. I thought the topic was pretty easy. At first I was like o.o but the second time I read it, it made sense lol. So yeah. Found 29 new scholarships to apply for :D I felt so happy haha. Now my list is like 4 pages long. Accomplished once again haha. I'll surpass my 20 limit for senior year in no time which is a definite plus. Oh and things I'm giving up for lent: Tumblr and time. Everyone asks me: Time? Well what better way to help someone else by giving up some of your time. I was looking up things through yahoo answers and a man suggested it and I was like wow, I should totally do that. It's nice to not only give up something for you, but even better, helping someone else. I really liked the idea. So yeah I'm going to do 20 hours of community service, hopefully more, and 2 scholarships a week, which I will probably forget. But I got it set. I need to do things that really will benefit me and others too. I'm happy with what I chose. And then the camping trip. I really didn't expect that at all, but I really hope I can go. Only problem is that I hope I don't sleep talk or sleep walk and it ain't the week of all weeks. I hope my parents will let me though. I mean it's only two nights and it isn't too far. But yeah, knowing them, I'm not too sure D: I just hope they give me the chance to spend it with friends with this being our last year. Even Relay for Life was a no, so chances of this happening isn't too big. Well I can still hope that maybe they will. Also, helping someone try to figure out prom stuff. That was really fun. Heartracing too haha. I love heping people with things, especially when it's something like this. I hope it all works out too. I also got Angelica her balloons. When I got to school, these two guys said Happy Birthday and I was like it's not my birthday and they were just like oh. Hahaha it was funny though. Who would buy themselves balloons for their birthday o.o Anyways, I worried too much but I couldn't help it. I like it when everything is perfect. Or better haha. I was stressing like crazy the night before too. Today was honestly better though. She loved her gift which made me even more happier. Just little things can change a persons day by a lot. Like the ducks Valerie got me for no reason. She's just too nice. So yeah, it worked out just fine. Everyone was like aww over my shirt at the assembly and I'm just like oh man they would haha. Thanks to Angelica, I love my one of a kind shirt so much :D I need to wear it more lol. Only like 4 people wore their shirts, but it was better than none. Can't wait to see the pictures. Everything went well and I'm happy. I hope she had a great day cause I was so happy being able to do all those things for her. It was a very good day. Can't wait for practice too. Good night world & have a great Friday :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

Someday.

I want to see rainbow roses in person. I always see them in photos, but nothing compares to the real thing. Why do they have to be so dang expensive though D: Anyways, today was a relaxed day. Learned more of the song, got homework done, missed Idol (shocker, right Debora?), worked ahead on homework, and got my acceptance. I swear, today was just unbelievable. I can't even explain how happy I feel. I'm going through too many emotions still. It's crazy you know, to finally feel wanted by your dream school. I mean what can top that? I never saw this day coming, especially not so soon. But now, I feel like all my hard work has finally paid off. I work my butt off for school and to know that I got in, it truly shows that determination and hard work will lead you in the right direction. I'm just stunned still. It's hard to accept. I just hope that everyone gets in to where they want to go too. I mean this feeling is just something everyone should get the chance to experience. To feel wanted is something I'm lucky to feel. My entire life I've never been good enough and this is just beyond anything I've ever imagined. Right here, right now, I can truly say that I'm proud of myself for everything I've struggled through because it paid off. Maybe things are meant to be. And right now, I couldn't be more satisfied. Ahhhhhh the joy. I'm usually too harsh on myself or act whatever about school because it's never "up to my parents standards" but I am really proud of myself for getting this far. So now, I must say I am beyond happy. Now the problem is, where am I going to attend? Oh tuition. You will drive me crazy. Well it's all in my hands now. I can't decide so soon, yet I know the day will come in a few months. The wait once again. Good night world & I hope you all had a lovely day cause I'm still trying to figure out mines :]]]]]]]]]]]

One of the best days of my life.

I got accepted to Cal Poly San Luis Obispo. I think my life has been made for now. I still can't believe it. I was shaking/almost crying when I read it. I'm still in shock, but YAYYYYYYY :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd

Why. Why. Why.

What has been going on lately? D:
Anyways, I'm super excited for tomorrow :D I can't wait lol. I love surprising people.

Hm.

Today was pretty good. Went to the piano room to practice and prom committee well for prom committee lol. Then english quiz was baddd. I did horrible on it. Government went well. Mr. V changed the grades so I got 64/65 :D YEEEE. But in Lit on Film, I was just like -_____- This film festival is just driving everyone crazy. Well Bacon, Julia, and I. I was just like blah blah blah listening to the two leaders for the festival that I don't want to name. I swear, the two leaders don't even consider everyone else's opinion and just take theirs first and then realize that the class doesn't even like their ideas. It just annoys me a lot. Hopefully other days won't be so bad. Or I hope not >.> Then a hypocrite once again get on my nerves. I mean I know we all do it now and then, but come on, you make it so obvious. Each and every day, she slowly starts to annoy me and I don't know why this is barely happening. Whatever. Anyways, Glee was freaking intense. I was watching it with James and it was just like omgggg this is so relateable and real. It was just so real cause it happens I'm sure at many places but it hit home for me. It really did. The songs were amazinggggg. Glad You Came, Fly/I Believe I Can Fly medley, and Stronger were so good. Ending sucked though. April 10th, I'm waiting xD Dance practice went okay. At first it started a little slow, but after a while we got the hang of it. Can't wait for more practices because I sure had fun. Well yeah. Man he's so considerate >.< "Goodnight if i don't come back." He came back lol but that was sweet. Anyways, that's all haha. Good night world :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

What is going on these days?

I swear there were freaking 6 signs today. I thought about you this morning for some reason I forgot, my sister had a dream we liked each other, the sign Livermore, the song on the radio by that artist, the guy in the car who looked just like you, and my sister owned the property in your name -______- WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!?!? And now we're showing each other funny things like before... To think this wasn't enough, I just realized who showed me Agents of Secret Stuff cklaskjiofmldf. Someone help me please or tell me why this is going on.

Today was fun. Visited family and went shopping. Subway cookies for the win. Found out something interesting from my sister. Yeah, that was pretty awkward but she better not harm herself. I swear, it wasn't even funny when she said it even though she wasn't even taking me seriously. Something like that won't ruin her life. She's just overexaggerating. Just PLEASE don't harm yourself. Really, that's all I ask. You'll forget about this soon...

Excited to start practicing this week :D Just need to study for the quiz. Good night world & please help my sister :]

Good day.

Visited family for the day, amazinggggg food for dinner, and had a blast. It was nice seeing my cousin since I don't see him that often. I smelled like oil which was the bad part. But still, the food was way too good. So yeah. Have a safe trip back to my cousin's cousin's parents. It was nice meeting you guys. I got like 3 signs/songs today that led me thinking about you. Livermore was the only actual sign I saw on the freeway haha. The other two are songs. Not sure what's going on lately, but you come up a whole lot. What is going on these days xD Good night world :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

Finished my homework.

Like 9 hours later after I started haha. I still need English notes, but good enough! Get to leave town tomorrow to help my uncle. Should be fun. Still shocked with what Jay told me, but it's all good if things don't work out. I'm still in disbelief haha. It was a good day. Minus the raging at Silversphere xD Helped with prom committee too. Accomplished for the day haha. Then I spent like an hour or two watching people ask someone to prom/homecoming/sadies/etc. Some were way too cute. Sad I missed MESA Day since all my old friends went, but congrats to everyone that won. Some people from school did too. It's been a good year. Good night world :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

If there's one thing I can't stand, it's...

When people blame others and not themselves for their own faults. I hate it when people don't realize that THEY are the problem. I swear, it annoys me to see people complain at others when they didn't do anything. It's your fault for not taking the chance or risk, so stop moping around and suck it up. You ruined your life, so stop complaining about it. I swear, it annoys me so much. People can be so self-centered. I can't stand people with multiple personalites. It's like you're my friend one day and my enemy the next. Make up your mind. Why is it so hard for people to see that they are the problem. People just never learn from their mistakes. They move on to something new and wonder why their life is so terrible. You got yourself there, you need to find your way out. People aren't that forgiving all the time. Man, certain people piss me off sometimes.

Yeee.

Learning The One That Got Away on piano. I'm determined to learn this one :D Hopefully. Well today we went to film and they didn't need me. I feel like I can never help sometimes >.> It sucks. Hopefully it won't take too long to finish the rest. I also finished another scholarship. Yessss. Accomplishment. Did stats hw too. Just need english and government still. I will for sure finish it tomorrow. Good night world & have a great weekend :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

"haha cause you are special :3"

That made my night right there ;D

Haha oh man.

I can't believe we fought to stay up and say that to each other. I swear, it feels like nothing has changed. It's like someone is messing with me or testing me right now. Why do things gotta be this way -____- Well whatever the reason, I'm glad we're talking again like old times. You're lucky I didn't kick you back earlier. I miss the way things use to be a little too much, but I can't help it. I let you go once and I don't want that to happen again. You're basically the one that got away. Funny how I told you about the song before it was popular. You're even the first person who comes to mind when I hear it >.> Ahh at the mall yesterday, it played the song cause someone at our table requested it xD No matter what happens, you'll always have a place in my heart. Even if things change, I know that you were there for me and that's all that I ever ask for from people, well they don't know that xD But either way, you mean a lot to me even after everything that has happened. In life, you get over things and that's what I did. I moved on, but a part of me is willing to let people back in. I'm just glad I have my friend back. It really does mean so much to me. Well I should be getting some sleep now. Good night world & these past two days have been so wonderful, if only they would continue :]]]]]]]]]]]]

P.S. I've been accepted to Pomona under provisional admit. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :D

Oh you make me smile.

Lyrics from Uncle Kracker. Ahh even though I'm over it, thinking about it just brings back old feelings. Why does this gotta happen to me >.> Our friendship can still be close. Maybe not like before, but it's better than not talking at all. I hope things change cause I miss talking to you. I miss having you around. I miss trusting & believing you. You really made me open up and I changed because of you. You brought out a side of me I wasn't willing to show after I was hurt by him. I know you have someone else, but I just want to be friends and talk again. That's all that I want.

Omggg.

Well today was very, very eventful. Went to prom committee and as I was going to Locke I saw a few of the guys leaving so I caught up with them cause I had nothing else to do. Turns out they were going to the food court so I just tagged along. Then we went to the park and hung out for a while. Got a ride back to school and went to TA. I left to Mrs. Solari and worked on my scholarship and finished :D I feel accomplished even if it was one scholarship, but it's way better than none. I just wish I could finish the other ones too, but we'll see. So in Avid I just wrote with Oksana's cool pen :D It was very cool haha. She drew a unicorn but James hecka dissed it xD Chose senior shirt designs too. I didn't finish english though >.> Talked to Mrs. G about the whole financial thing and I just hope so much that things turn out alright. Went to Key Club and finally got my shirt :D I'm happy haha. We all decided to just go get food and meet up at the food court so I ended up getting McD's again. I feel so unhealthy -___- But it was good haha. Then some guy driving hits on Mary & I. I thought he had a gf next to him but it was a dude next to him xD Awkward to the max. Then the whole prom talks were like whyyy haha. At the movies, the line was freaking longgggggggg. Longer than I've ever seen at the movies. It was just wack. So the movie sold out and we bought tickets to another movie but watched the other one. Ahhh it was too cute. And the people behind us were making comments which was funny. He kept calling her a skank xD Anyways the movie was just so cute. I was just like "awww" and laughing during most of it. It was very entertaining. I totally wanna see The Lucky One. Must tell Valerie about it tomorrow. Anyways then Bren asking Bernadette was way too cute. Singing and everything. Even random people were like what's going on. And then Toya showed up and we were all just omggg haha. It was nice seeing her again. Today was definitely eventful. Oh and the whole twin day thing. Funny how I was thinking the exact same thing in the car earlier... I swear, things didn't seem like they even changed. That conversation was just so I don't know, brought me back to old times even though I know things are different now. But as long as he's happy, it's all good. But now I might be able to accomplish that one thing on my bucket list lol. I kinda hope so cause the bet was suppose to be with him too so maybe it'll work out. I just hope I don't forget. Well today was a very good day. I said that like 10 times already. Even talked to Sierra :D I should sleep. Must do hw too. Good night world & I hope you all had a great Valentine's Day :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

Short & simple.

Well I'm tired and it's late so here it is. Happy Valentine's Day! I'm stressed about financial aid, or I was, but yeah hopefully things get better. I hope everyone has a lovely day & spend it with those you really care about. Have a great one guys. Good night world :]

Well well well,

The start to a longggggg post hahaha. It'll take me hecka long. So lets begin with yesterday. Ahh there's gonna be typos cause I'm sleepy. I bet I'll forget a lot, but let's see. Woke up sorta early haha and got everything ready. Got my grandparents and headed to SF. We arrived and met a relative and he took us to the parking garage. It was the festival/parade so there were A LOT of people. Even parking was crazy and took a while. We went to the restaurant first and met his wife and my grandfather's brother. The food was very tasty especially the Ha Gow, which is shrimp wrapped with something xD that I love haha. I had 10 last time in San Leandro, but they were small haha. This time they were like twice the size. So we all ate and then went shopping after. I got to see the whole festival with a lotttt of people. Even the Chase Dog was hecka tall haha. Stared at people, waited, listened to music, and just took it all in. The streets were just packed with people. We seriously waited for my mom for like an hour+. She took heckaaaaa long at one of the stores. We mostly walked around to stores so my family could just buy stuff that they needed. At one point, we were waiting and I was listening to music. These Mexican or Caucasian group of kids were playing with these pop pop things that makes lots of noise when you throw them on the ground. I heard it once but then it was hecka loud and I said "Oh sh*t" sooooo loud and my dad and sister were right next to me. My dad just laughed and I thought I said "Oh shoot" but it took me like 5 minutes to realize what I really said. I got hecka scared D: But yeah, I was just FML for hecka long haha. I saw many cute guys xD So we decided to take all the stuff to the car cause there was a lot. My grandparents went to the house of my grandfather's brothers and the rest of us went to the car. We took this free shuttle ride that goes to the parking garage. It was so fun and the driver drove pretty fast. But we got to see some of the pier and areas around there. Went to find the car and came back just in time to take it back to Chinatown. We went to where my grandparents went and that hill going there was super steep. We didn't even go up the whole block and I was already having issues walking. It was already like 4 or 5 by the time we were there. Shopping took forever. So we went up to the room and greeted everyone again. The view was freaking amazing haha. You can see all of downtown, the coast/water, Alcatraz, Bay Bridge, and so much more. It was beautiful. Then Lisa, Mandy, and Angel (I didn't really get to hear her name) came after school. Then my sister and I went with them to wander the festival and get food. We got popcorn chicken and some boba tea drink which was ehh cause I dont like tea from Quickly. It's like a Lollicup but different name and super small. No where has watermelon snow >.> Anyways the food was good except I was still sick and it was a little spicy so it made me cough. I didn't eat much but I had the drink to chug down haha. It made me full even though I didn't even finish it. Then we walked through the festival and there was even more people cause it was getting closer to the parade at 6. It was cool walking through and hanging out with my second cousins. I don't see them much so the bonding was fun. We went to meet my mom and Lisa's mom since they came back to buy stuff. Afterwards, we went back to the house again and waited for everyone to arrive. Ashley's family came after a while and the view was even nicer cause it was dark outside. So pretty. We sat and waited and it was like around 6:00 and we watched the parade on television. We were gonna go see it downtown, but didn't end up doing so. We went to buy scarves and I got like 5 haha. All so pretty ;D and cheap :D Which is a huge plus. We went to the wedding afterwards at this super fancy restaurant. The bride and groom looked so cute together. It was adorable. The food was good and the slide show had this amazingggggg song that I'm currently listening to. It's called Can't Stop Love~Darin. It's soooooo cute and I just love it. Perfect for a wedding. Overall, I had a great time and it was truly an experience worth remembering. Even the view was just like wow. You can see Coit Tower on the left (from where I was sitting), buildings on the right, and even more behind. It was such a wonderful memory I'd love to occur again. Afterwards, we headed back to the car which took forever cause everyone was leaving before the garage closed. That took like an hour and we made it safely. It was nice walking through the streets of downtown San Francisco at night with all the buildings lighted up. It was definitely a sight worth seeing. I wouldn't have imagined this day to be that fun but it really surpassed my expectations. I also took many pictures of the day. Lots of random/sightseeing ones basically, but looking back at them makes me smile. Even though I was dead tired by the time I got home, it was all worth it. I'd love to go back just to sight see, but it was one of those really memorable days you won't forget for a long time. I wish the couple a long and happy life together<3

Well that was a very lengthy post and that's not even the end xD It is of SF but I got more to write about for today xD So it was the Key to College event and I arrived "late" so I wouldn't be alone. Well guess what, I was the only person who showed up! Haha man I can't get over that. Even though like 30 people said they were going, I was the only one who went. It was lots of fun though. I felt like being the only person was a huge advantage because I got to talk 1 on 1 with everyone and there weren't too many people so I knew everyone and they knew me. It was cool that they were all willing to present the presentations to me and they all gave me lots of helpful advice that I think will definitely help me in the near future. I think today really opened my eyes to the reality of college and the more I think of it, the more I want to go to UOP. I'm kinda open to my options, but I just enjoy it a lot. They made me feel really welcome and one guy who did the presentation was cute ;D Then the other tour guide kinda focused his attention on me which made me a little uncomfortable since there was like 20 people in the tour group, but it was nice he was trying to ask for my opinion and show me things related to my major, since he's an engineering major too. I think everyone did a great job and I enjoyed the whole thing. I had a breakfast burrito and their tator tots look super good. The presentations were helpful and the college panel. It's nice to see how close they all are and how much they were willing to help me in any way possible. I had a fun time and I will be sure to take up any opportunities I have in the future. I know I won't regret them. So scholarships, I will apply asap. I just finished FAFSA today and basically had a pani attack talking to Mary. I really hope I can join Circle K in college. This experience made me realize how things are going to change very soon. But I gotta be ready and hope for the best. Like Fiona said to me, "put yourself out there." I won't try to hold back, but if I really want something, I'll go for it. I won't hesitate or second guess myself anymore. If it's what I truly want, I'll do whatever it takes it get it. With this mindset, I know I can't go wrong. So thank you to everyone I met today, the UOP, Sac State, UC Davis, and University of Reno (I think) students. It really meant a lot to me that you guys really tried your best to help me. It was a good day, it really was. Man overall this weekend was just the best haha. The more I think about it, the more appreciative I am of everything that happened. Haha reminds me how I think his name was Tony was talking about "Singles Awareness Day" this week haha. It sure made me laugh. They are all wonderful people and it was pleasure getting to know them. Good night world & have a lovely week :]

Wow.

So many wonderful things happened today which I will post all about tomorrow. I'm way too tired and I really need to get some sleep. Gotta be up early tomorrow/later on today haha. I'm so sleepy, I'm not even gonna wanna wake up tomorrow. But highlights from today:

• going to SF
• seeing/being with family
• wandering the streets
• watching the parade on tv
• walking through the festival
• seeing cute guys xD
• free shuttle rides
• the wedding
• late night walk
• buying scarves
• taking hecka pictures
• the amazing views
• fireworks/pop pops (I think that's the name)
• having fun & being happy

My legs are killing me though -_____- Good night world :]

P.S. Happy Belated Birthday to Kevin & Kenneth!!! :DD

Yah.

This morning I got to school and went to get a piano room. I ended up seeing Mary and hung out with her. Then she told me that Valerie came by but I wasn't there so she went to TA. I went to see if she was there, but she wasn't so I just went back. Mary and I goofed around for hecka long and just talked about random things. I felt better after telling her. Then Valerie comes in right after hahaha. Hecka killed the moment but yeah there wasn't much I could do. So we goofed off heckaaa, took many pictures and videos, and most of all, had fun. I was laughing so much that my bone was hurting xD It's hard to get me to laugh that much. Valerie fell off the chair several times and held onto Mary for so long. Ahh it was so funny. Then we left cause it was 11:15 and I lost track of time. There was only like 5 people at the meeting xD I felt bad though cause I try not to be late. We talked about plans for next week and left afterwards. Went to Locke and hung out with friends. Then free period came along and I had nothing to do. The guys went to the piano room to meet Kevin and Nicole and I went shortly afterwards. It was cute what he's doing for her. I can't believe he's going to sing cause I don't see him singing haha. He's not that bad though. Then some teacher guy came by and got mad cause there was 9 of us in there and some of them were eating food. So we got a warning and all felt hecka bad for Kevin. He seemed pretty sad for the rest of the day afterwards D: We played chess in Locke. Oh and I bought the candy gram for Jade :D I hope she likes it. I was also the first person who bought one LOL. Hecka random. Kenneth thought I said I bought one for Jay and he was like wtf haha. Then I told him Jade. Man, being sick sucks cause you can't even understand me -____- After that I went to TA and left and went to the other TA class haha. Just played games the whole time which I will do after statistics xD Or maybe while I'm doing statistics haha. Then went to the awards assembly. James' chair was broken on the back so when he sat like halfway through when Mrs. Balian was talking, the whole back came off and he sort of fell but held onto a chair in front of him. Omg we were just all cracking up cause it was hecka quiet and Mrs. Balian was glaring at us. It was horrible, but I couldn't stop laughing. Dalia was sitting next to me and she never stops laughing and I can't help it when someone else laughs, I laugh. So I was tyring to stop but I couldn't and neither could she. It was all bad xD Erin and Angela would laugh every now and then and Gabe did too. It was just too funny. The trailers for the Film Festival were hecka good and I can't wait to see it all come together. Overall, it was a pretty good day. I had a blast but I'm always tired once I get home or around 4A. Hopefully I get better soon cause I hate being sick and I got a long weekend ahead of me.

"You know that I could use somebody."

Use Somebody~Kings of Leon

I'm listening to the radio and this song comes on. This exactly explains my mood right now, except I just want to be alone, but I could use somebody.

That just killed my day.

Why SLO D: I mean it could've been worse, but still.

Apologize.

When one song randomly plays that brings a flashback of memories, good and bad. Scary. Honestly, I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now...

"Oh its what you do to me."

Lyrics from Hey There Delilah. Even though I've forgotten about it, my feelings won't escape. It still bothers me all the time. I finished half of the reading. Sections 3 and 5 are short. 4 is very long though -____- Hopefully I wake up early enough tomorrow so I can finish the rest. Good night world.

Plans.

I hate it when events happen on the same weekend. I wish I could be at two places at once. If only. Oh well, I hope everyone has a great time :D

Bum bum bum.

So I'm more sick now. I think my voice got slightly better but now I feel really warm and I have a runny nose. Why must this happen to me D: I didn't even study for tomorrow's test yet either. Gahhhhh. I will get off soon to do that. 5 sections to read about government. Lovely. I'm being sarcastic here if you can't tell xD Today was a pretty good day. I got so bored during TA that I played kid games on yahoo. Then in Avid I pretended to read Government, but I wrote notes for piano. Culture Club was funny and entertaining. My knees were killing me after taking the senior picture and then the Culture Club one. Kneeling can be very painful. So yeah that was my day. I didn't do much. Days seem to be getting longer and longer. Well I should study and rest. Good night world & I hope none of you are sick :]]]]]]

-___-

You're always so busy nowadays. What happened? You were once so important to me and now, I just don't know anymore. I miss the old you, but people change. I need to accept that no matter how much I don't want to.

Today was just another day. It was a pretty good one too until Key Club. I was just all blah after that. None of my friends really go to the meetings and Kevin sat by the computers. Oh well, at least Danilo was there lol. Well I just hope tomorrow isn't boring. Hopefully my voice gets better cause you can tell that I'm sick, or at least sound sick. Other than that, I'm fine. With the occasional tiredness/sleepiness. Then I signed up for the Key to College thing. Once again, none of my friends are going. Ahh I feel so alone sometimes but it's whatever. It's part of life.

Waiting for something that will never come.

Yeah, it hurts.

Ahhh.

My freaking throat has been bothering me all day. Now it's almost gone, I can still feel it sort of. But then I started coughing and well coughing just plain sucks, especiallyyyy for me cause I sound like a dog when it gets bad. My voice goes deep and it's just not good. I read Act 3 already xD Then I did next times homework and started the homework after that. I sort of forgot that the essay was due at 5:00 so I couldn't do much about it. At least I didn't finish the essay or that would've been horrible. For eggdrop, only 1 of 6 eggs survived. Last time 4/4 did. I wonder what went wrong. Either I didn't wrap them enough or it is because it landed on its side instead. Whatever the reason, I'm testing again next week so that ought to be fun. Well I'm tired and I just feel like reading now. That always gets me sleepy xD Good night world & have a fantastic Tuesday :]

Mission accomplished?

Well I feel productive after this weekend. The only thing left to do is that essay that's due tomorrow. So today we visited family. Got to see the new house and the only thing I liked was the view. Even though half of the view was cut off by the houses, but it was nice since you can watch the sunset, sort of. Depends where you are in the neighborhood. The house is okay, definitely not worth the price. But I had a great day seeing the family :D Anddddd, Giants wonnnnn. Ahh man my heart was pounding like crazy at the restaurant. Pretty good food at both places too. Just my sore throat but gargling the salt water made it soooo much better now. Well I should get some rest. Good night world & have a great week :]]]]]]]]]]

Hmm.

I'm excited to finally leave the house xD I feel like I'm home all day. I spent like 5 hours on stats homework, so I deserve a reward. I can't wait for the Superbowl. Time sure flies by. I have a feeling that this will be a good week. I'm not sure why, but I have a feeling that something good will happen. Well, I hope something good happens haha. Besides the wedding and workshop. Gotta be up at 9:00 tomorrow, so I should be going to sleep now. Good night world & have a lovely Sunday :]]]]]]]]

Eventually.

You forgive people. No matter how bad they hurt you or treated you wrong, you forgive them. I know there's someone that I haven't had the best past with, but I forgave them. I can't even imagine how bad things must be for them. But I'm not saying it isn't their fault that things end up the way they do. The bottom line is, we are all struggling and holding a grudge only makes life more difficult.

Whew.

That moment when you freak out because you think something is wrong, but turns out everything is perfectly normal. This is such relieving news, I'm not even kidding. Good to know that I don't need to freak out anymore. So today I was the only person who showed up for the meeting for like 5 minutes besides Ulices. Then Kenia came right when I was leaving, so it was perfect timing. There was that random guy who was sneaking behind Erika and threw something at her. That was just really creepy. Then went to English and "tarantella" came up and Angela read tarantula instead. I didn't even notice until Mr. K commented on it. The play was getting really good with the whole Dr. Rank confessing his love part. I didn't expect that at all. In Gov, I did my current event. Thank goodness for the people who raised their hand/talked. Lecture about good credit/housing market really opened my eyes to the future. Now I understand the housing market and know that having good credit is really important. Life lessons in class make me happy. In Lit on Film, we watched more films and omg some were just hilarious and ver entertaining. I think we watched some of the best ones today. Overall, it was a pretty good day. I already did English homework, so maybe I'll work ahead next free period unless they leave campus. This week I can take a break from hw and what not. I been doing hw all the time during fp so now I can do whatever. We also have independent study, so gives me more reason to relax during fp. This weekend I need to apply for scholarships, prepare for a quiz in Lit on Film, and work on next weeks Statistics homework. I only finished Monday's stuff, so I need to keep on doing the rest of the homework. Man I still can't get over the whole normal part because I thought it was so weird. Such a relief. I should start a drama in a few weeks. Hopefully I don't get addicted to it haha. Knowing me, I will xD I need to work on that bracelet for Debora. I keep on forgetting to start on it -___- Anyways, I should sleep. I feel like I have a small headache >.> Superbowl 46 on Sundayyy :D Go Giants! Woot woot. Good night world & have a great weekenddd :]]]]]]]]]]]]

So tired.

Ahhh current event just takes up my whole day. I didn't even get to watch my tv shows and I barely finished. I hope people talk tomorrow. It's always awkward nowadays. Lunch was fun. Too rushed though D: but I had a good time. Man I'm so tired, I just need to sleep. Good night world & have a great Friday :]

Lalala...

Once again, it was a pretty good day. Didn't do much but went to the piano room with Mary. That was very interesting haha. I'm starting to read notes better now, and yes the song helped lol. There isn't much to say besides that I had another good day. But that last conversation with Mary just made it great. Lunch date tomorrow :D I'm excited haha. And then that terrible fail that I had wasn't good at all xD Just trying to make the best of each and every day and I'm glad I can do that with those who mean so much to me. Good night world :]